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This week in Quarantine I've been sorting beads.
Why not, right?
I actually enjoy tasks like this one. It allows me to soak in the details. I love seeing every bead one at a time and appreciating them individually. Every bead is different. Different color, shape, size, cracks, marks, rainbows, patterns, textures. All these differences, some similar, some completely opposite, all coming together in one heap of potential creativity.
I love it all. There's a comfort in finding a bead you recognize. Kind of like a familiar face. This chaotic mess of beads brings me so much peace even though it's a jumble of randomness. I love sitting and sorting them into different groups. Some are beads of the same variety. Some clusters are the same color. Some have a similar surface.
This mass of little pieces inspires me immensely.
It reminds me of life, humanity, our world, actions we need to take, thoughts we need to have, wisdom that needs to soak in.
I started to sort one day when looking for sets of beads to make into DIY Citrine bracelet kits.
(So you can make bracelets while we're in lock down to save humanity from itself)
Eventually I'd walk by the box of beads and not resist standing, stroking the beads with my fingers, running my hands through the bed of beads like the surface of water.
The sounds of all these tiny bits moving mesmerized me.
All the colors, shapes, and sounds capture my attention.
Eventually I was on the floor with my notebook and headphones sorting out beads.
Writing in my journal the first draft of this blog.
The first idea that came into my mind while sorting is that details matter.
Details are what make life fun and interesting!
When you get up close and personal with every moment of your life, it's easier to fall in love with every second. If you're not falling in love with every moment I recommend diving into the practice of gratitude.
There is no chance of losing ourselves if we are present in every moment with love. regardless of what you've lived through. we can express a range of emotions while still being in love with ourselves and life.
This kind of attention span requires us all to slow down, bask in the details, loving every moment for what it is. Loving ourselves for who we are. Picking ourselves up and our self esteem with it.
Living in a world where people refuse to be immersed in their mind, body, and soul is quite harmful to watch. It's just plain out harmful. Wisdom tells me to bite my tongue because people need to learn lessons on their own but the mentor in me wants to scream at people for their carelessness. This carelessness and lack of responsibility for your life drove me nuts when I tried to live that way. The realization that you have a choice sets you free from a world that beats you into submission, before you have a chance to consider if you want to be treated this way in the first place. We decide how we are treated by what we allow people to do and say around us. I didn't sit back and ask myself what I want. I had no self esteem because I was raised to live in a world where I please others. Not the other way around. What I want and what I need was not a question I'd asked myself. So before it occurred to me that I have a choice, many traumatic things happened. I was unable to address these traumas and really learn from them until much later in my life.
I do not want to live in a world where things happen to me.
I am an active part of my life.
I can take my time making choices. I feel comfortable saying no. I don't do what I don't want to. My life is better for that. I am full of life energy, knowing some things aren't for me. That is okay. I don't need to keep people or things in my life that I do not want.
Now that I've learned my lesson, I can see many people just sitting in their comfort zone, playing the victim, or acting fake woke about psychology. A place you are privileged to be. But this place we are clinging to is holding us all back from progress. Regardless of where we are in this life, I hope we treat one another with kindness, compassion and understanding.
Shit, that's all I ever wanted in life.